Puxah

Browsing through my own life

2006-07-20T06:45:18Z

I just got lost in my old posts. Drama central. I can't say I'm completely over that, but who can? Bored now, spending my summer in prison, seeing what the summer can bring me. Perhaps a little romance? Let the good times roll!

Marriage

2005-08-10T06:21:21Z

This week is the ELCA's churchwide assembly in Orlando, FL. Among the issues on the agenda are the consideration of whether or not to ordain individuals practicing sexual intimacy in publicly-committed same-sex relationships, and whether to bless such relationships as "churchified" unions.

I wonder... if such blessings and ordinations become part of our practices (and I dearly hope they do), could we then become a spearhead to reform the laws of our nation? What if ELCA members in publicly-committed relationships, both same-sex and opposite-sex, boycotted the state institution of marriage until every citizen is granted the same rights in their unions? Would the ELCA bless heterosexual unions that do not have a marriage certificate from a state? What message would this send? Could we make ourselves heard? What effect would such a thing have on our full communion partnerships and hopes for greater inter-denominational and interfaith dialogues?

Meh

2005-06-26T15:01:52Z

I wanted my first post from CA to be on my own computer, but that doesn't seem to be coming together so well. I can see the wireless network, but it refuses to assign me an IP. And of course, I can't manually assign the info, because no one knows what the gateway, network mask, and DNS info should be. Meh.

In other news, I am at PLTS, and not dead. Yay! Going to the Gay Pride March in SanFran today, and tomorrow starts Greek.

Phone Post: From the Road in El Paso

2005-06-18T01:42:18Z

Departure

2005-06-13T09:16:28Z

And so I depart. No online for a couple weeks. Here's to new and exciting things. I love where I've been and who it's been with, but I'm called away for a little while. Know that my thoughts are both ahead and behind, and you have my love.

Travel

2005-06-11T02:51:01Z

So, there's a hurricane in the Gulf of Mexico. Going to track it over the next few days, but a contingency plan is in order. Maybe... Nashville -> Little Rock -> Oklahoma City -> Austin?

Quiz

2005-05-23T23:24:55Z

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Yoda

75%

Obi Wan Kenobi

56%

General Grievous

56%

Mace Windu

53%

Darth Vader

53%

R2-D2

53%

Anakin Skywalker

50%

Clone Trooper

47%

Chewbacca

47%

Padme Amidala

44%

C-3PO

39%

Emperor Palpatine

36%

Which Revenge of the Sith Character are you?
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Kingdom of Heaven

2005-05-13T01:35:49Z

Kingdom of Heaven: A good film, to be sure. Nothing spectacular in any particular way. It's a historical fiction, so you know how it's going to end, and Orlando Bloom is the hero, so you know he'll get out alive. But all around solid entertainment, and it spoke to me at my spiritual core.

"What man is worthy of the name if he does not make the world a better place?"

Title is nothing, ceremony of religion is nothing; only the man and his relationship with God matter in the end.

Live each day doing right with what is given to you; God will put your work before you.

Cult Goes Pop

2005-05-02T00:59:16Z

When RHPS and Cold Case combine, they create a force strong enough to keep me up an hour past my bedtime!

Wandering

2005-04-23T21:38:13Z

A nomad again. I may not be sure where the journeys end, but I have direction, and that's far superiour to any time previous. Pray for my peace, and my safe passage.

Interesting

2005-04-16T14:25:40Z

The funniest things come to you in the wee hours of the morn'...

Evanescence - Even in Death
Rob Zombie - Ratfinks, Suicide Tanks & Cannibal Girls

If you have a copy of these, take a listen...

What happened there?

Lonely

2005-04-15T15:31:31Z

I did some thinking (I know, very dangerous...). I am glad this job will be over soon. I'm surrounded by people all the time, even when I sit here at the library. Somehow, in this sea of people, I feel a bit lonely. I can't really connect with the kids, and no one is at the library for a chat. I look forward, anxiously, to the time when I can just walk down the hall or across the lawn at any time of day and find someone who understands a bit of where I'm coming from. I crave... people? intellectual stimulation? conversation? I'm not sure, but my current schedule isn't letting me get enough of whatever it is. A good experience to have had, but like so many, stinks to be entrenched in the moment of it.

And to think, I was an introvert at one time!

Now, having said so, I feel a bit better already. I think I just like to understand myself. Good luck to anyone else who tries (though I welcome the attempt ;)!

Per Request

2005-04-13T15:15:04Z

As per Breonna's request:

Kathy, Breonna would like to know who you are. According to last night's conversation, she still can't put your name together with a face. Check out her reply to your last comment.

Well, Duh!

2005-04-10T15:53:34Z

As my new acquaintance Kathy so succinctly put it (and as anyone who knows me can tell you), I have long been in love with the idea of love. The romance of wooing, the magic of that spark, the glimmer in the eye... movies, literature, history... society puts it in your head from day one.

But yesterday, I realized something very valuable. That just can't last. There are going to be arguments, and times apart (boy, howdy!), and just quiet moments with no particular event of urgency. I can't keep that heat every moment, and who wants to? It would burn me up and wear me out! What I can do is keep a friend. After all, we chose together to call us a couple. And that was before I started my delusions of movie magic. I'll just be me, and let the rest fall into its own place, trusting God for the right thing to happen.

Put away childish fantasies, and welcome to reality. I've got a great friend in Breonna, and I think I can safely say that we both hope this will grow to something spectacular.

Disconnected

2005-04-08T21:00:39Z

I think I have discovered why I've been so... antsy lately. I feel disconnected from Breonna because we can't physically hang out and just be in each other's pleasant company. I worry that this will cause us to grow apart. What can we start doing to stay connected and keep in touch without being close geographically?

I'm thinking things like... reading the same book, studying the same Bible passages, watching the same movies. I bought The Book of Questions and If... 3, but that really requires us to match up a great deal of time for phone or IM.

She's FAR more busy than I am, so I hope to find something she's already doing, but any suggestion can help.

Weirdness

2005-04-08T09:38:36Z

I wore shorts yesterday. I felt naked all day. It was plenty warm, but I just felt like I wasn't wearing something appropriate.

In other news, I was moved to poetry again, but am not yet satisfied with the result. It's somehow inadequate to the task. I want to say something in particular, but something's not quite right. Like somehow, "Breonna deserves better than this." I don't know. But I get to hear her voice again today, which is just another reason to be grateful for another day.

Star Wars

2005-04-03T15:40:24Z

I'm willing to accept that Sidious was always evil. Despite my nature, I can suspend that disbelief for the sake of good fantasy. But who taught him? Did he travel to old Sith ruins to find holocrons? Doubtful, as he is the Sith master. I don't know any uber-fans of Star Wars, but maybe someone knows or knows where to find out.

No Foolin'!

2005-04-01T18:00:52Z

I called Cingular today and ordered a phone with a California number. It should be activated by the end of April, and will at that point become my primary phone. I'll try to make sure that everyone who needs the number gets it before then, but if you're one of the people that needs it, you should have plenty of ways to contact me after the changeover if I happen to miss you.

:D

2005-03-27T04:15:48Z

I've got a girlfriend, she really l*v*s me. (Can't say that yet ;P)

(That's from a movie, methinks, but I can't for the life of me remember which. Help! I'm oversaturated with pop culture!)

But let me say this to Bre: "As you wish."

God's Mysterious Ways

2005-03-22T09:42:53Z

Spring arrives, and I am reborn! Let there be joy! I've had lots of time to learn many lessons. With prayer, communication, and time, let it last.

Breonna is the answer to many prayers. *gringrin*

Bindings

2005-03-21T23:50:04Z

We are all bound. We all surrender. Make your choices wisely, as escape can be inordinately difficult.

I surrender to peace. When violence threatens to overtake me, I step away.

I am bound by the law of love. When my tongue longs to strike out, I become silent.

Even God chooses: He lets us choose sometimes. He could make life all sweet, but how would we learn the consequences of our actions?

I fail in the patience department on a regular basis, but it all turns out well in the end.

Brebear, I miss you.

Road Trip

2005-03-16T00:52:19Z

I'm outtie June 13 for CA. Proposed road trip so far:

June 13: Baltimore, MD -> Birmingham, AL (779 miles)

A hard drive, but I'll be fresh off 2 weeks of "vacation" doing packing a stuff, and I want to get to New Orleans early in the day.

June 14: Birmingham, AL -> New Orleans, LA (343 miles)
June 15: New Orleans, LA

A whole day and a half! Whatever will I do for so much time?!

June 16: New Orleans, LA -> Austin, TX (507 miles)

Edit: Thankfully, drleo will be open and available for a hangout!

June 17: Austin, TX -> El Paso, TX (617 miles)

Maybe a trip into Ciudad Juarez, but nothing big if I don't get there. I've been to border towns twice already. Pretty touristy.

June 18: El Paso, TX -> Tucson, AZ (316 miles)
June 19 - 22: Tucson, AZ

This might be a bit long, either to wear out my welcome or get awkward. No problem pushing up the departure, if necessary. Breonna is here. 'Nuff said.

June 23: Tucson, AZ -> Las Vegas, NV (409 miles)

One night in Vegas? I've never been here, but I expect it to be expensive, and a night view is best. I can't lose much at this point, as I'll have spent most of it already.

June 24: Las Vegas, NV -> Berkeley, CA (563 miles)

Arrive at school with a weekend to unpack and get settled before a short week of Biblical Greek, then a flight home to serve in George's wedding.

Garbage Returns!

2005-03-08T00:28:06Z

Garbage concert. 9:30 Club. April 21, Thursday. Who's going with me? It's sold out, but ebay is rife with opportunities.

Youth Gathering Weekend

2005-01-31T00:16:43Z

I had an awesome time this weekend with our youth, and reached out to some of the kids who I didn't know so well before. It's times like this that make going off to seminary bittersweet. I hope to work in time for some of the events when I can be back in town. Maybe Youth Gathering 2006.

Elektra

2005-01-25T00:28:37Z

So I decided to treat myself to a film after the GRE this morning.

Elektra: It's not the acting, it's not the SFX, it's the writing. The baddies just weren't bad. They were flat. They came, they scared, they died. And it was a beautiful movie, digital effects smoothly integrated. Just... I didn't really get attached to ANY of the characters. I know it's not a sequel to Daredevil, but they gave a passing nod to the fact that there should be some continuity there. Jennifer Garner is coming into her own, as far as I can tell. I'll need to see some Alias one of these days.

To 20th Century Fox and Marvel: STOP CRANKING THESE THINGS OUT LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW! MAKE THEM GOOD!

Blech...